Baby Girl

A big part of my family was lost today. Our bulldog puppy, Lexus, was run over and killed this morning. Bo found her on the side of the road by the house as he was leaving for church. She will be missed so bad. The house already seems empty without her there. She was always glad to see you come in the door. Her body would go to wiggling and her whole face would light up. It hasn't been but a couple of hours and I can't stop thinking of her. She was the first girl dog we have had. She was more loving than the boys are. She'd snuggle up to you at night. She liked to be pressing up against you. If you were eating something, she thought you were supposed to share with her. If you didn't get it to her quick enough, she let you know about it. Lexie was an attention getter wherever she went. She liked to be made a fuss over. She didn't have a mean bone in her body. She was just a big scaredy cat. Last night, Bo brought a skateboard in the house to see if she would play with it. She didn't know what that thing was. She hid under the coffee table and laid there growling at it. She didn't want any part of that contraption.
I'm sitting here trying to type this and my eyes are so full of tears that I can't see what I'm putting down. Lexie, you were a part of our family and we miss you so much already. I just feel like there's a hole in my gut. It hurts and feels hollow. I want to see you again. To have you look at me with those big 'ol cow eyes and try to get me to play with you. Bringing a toy to pull with you or just getting me to get in the floor to wrestle with you. I dread going to bed tonight and not feel your weight on the covers and hearing you snore all night.
Baby girl, I love you and I will miss you.